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curseonyourlips @ 2008-09-12T15:58:00

2008-09-12T23:01:55Z

self destruct in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

2007-07-05T02:49:22Z

If it wasn't for the band I'd probably be dead.

the road is my home...

2006-11-14T22:30:33Z

Home isn't home anymore, I honestly don't even know where it started out to be in the first place. There are only two places in the world I don't feel completely lost, and one is when we are on the road. I wish it never had to end, real life isn't cutting it.

Bradley White is one of the most amazing dudes I've ever known. I'm blessed to have him as a friend. He makes me strive to be a better person. I love you Brad.

I don't even know what's real anymore

2006-09-24T18:05:32Z

I need to get home and lay in my bed for days and sleep off this nightmare.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-07-23T11:09:00

2006-07-23T16:09:34Z

shes an angel.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-06-23T17:02:00

2006-06-24T00:05:01Z

i have come to the conclusion that being the heartbreaker is a lot better than being the heartbroken. it hurts a hell of a lot less. eat your cookies, good day!

i dont know what it means, but i mean it...

2006-05-16T13:39:09Z

i have tired eyes, but im restless. nothing has worked out the way i planned, but thats life. part of me wants to give up and the other half wants to give up even more, its rather tricky. its 6:30 in the morning, ive been up at this hour for the past 4 days. i am watching The Princess Bride and drinking boxed wine..not drunk, just enjoying the cheapness of it. im not the same person i was a week ago, im still trying to figure out if its a good thing or bad thing. i guess we'll see.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-05-02T09:43:00

2006-05-02T16:47:24Z

my birthday is tomorrow. blahhh.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-04-12T01:34:00

2006-04-12T08:34:27Z

when i said you kill me, i didnt mean it in an all bad way. just the way weve talked about before. you are gay =)

curseonyourlips @ 2006-04-05T14:19:00

2006-04-05T21:21:25Z

sooo im about to leave for yuma to go to my great grandpas funeral. im not very excited, like most people i hate funerals, and i keep telling myself its just life and thats the way things work but i really dont think its helping, so im going to deal with it like i do with everything..a nice vodka tonic drink! yupyupyup. good day!

curseonyourlips @ 2006-04-04T15:03:00

2006-04-04T22:03:27Z

im pretty sure im losing my mind.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-03-25T13:28:00

2006-03-25T20:31:43Z

bahbahbahbah... soooo yeahhhh. we arent going to chicago anymore so im pretty excited about that, fuck snow.

p.s. dont let your guard down.

p.p.s. im still miserable.

p.p.s. fuck fuck fuck.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-03-02T10:09:00

2006-03-02T16:10:15Z

im such a fucking mess right now. its really pathetic.

my near death experience.

2006-01-31T21:39:20Z

as most of you know ive been on tour for about a week, and last night around 10 pm we were driving through montana when we hit a patch of black ice, slid sideways, and ran into a snow bank which made us do a 180 degree barrel roll. everyone in the band was buckled besides jeremy and myself. so imagine putting mice in a dryer and turning it on and thats almost how bad it felt being throw around in the van. we are all very lucky to be alive, i seriously thought i was going to fly out of the van and die. this is by far the scariest thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life. i am so grateful for my band and myself to be alive and walking. all of the firemen and parmedics said it was a miracle that jeremy and myself were alive. jeremy and myself got transported to a hopstial. i was released last night and jeremy was just released about a half hour ago, we are a burised and sore and really shaken up but again very happy to be alive. the van is a little smashed up and our trailor is completely totalled. we will be heading home tomorrow morning. the rest of our tour dates are cancelled however the az dates we are still planning on playing. its been a very rough couple days and we all cant wait to get home. ill keep updating as much as i can. thank you so much for your support. love jonathan.

curseonyourlips @ 2006-01-28T17:07:00

2006-01-29T01:09:12Z

soo im Washington. i dont really update this much, sooo im updating. im alive, so thats always good. tonight should hopefully be a good show, its been raining a lot. okay im done.

curseonyourlips @ 2005-12-31T19:53:00

2005-12-31T10:53:38Z

ugh.

Venting

2005-12-14T22:21:29Z

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i feel so lame for this but yeahhh.

2005-12-13T08:43:47Z

Three sleepless nights,
this isn't how its supposed to be.
But you are so good at
taking your time to get back to me.

I will wait for you forever,
if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you
but you changed me.

But it doesn't feel right,
holding someone else's hand.
Together on phone line,
and living at two opposite ends.

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But you're head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not (it’s not) so easy for me
you’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.

And I thought that you said
things were improving.
These laces are untied,
but my feet are still walking away.

(I fall from you eyes, your eyes I trusted, you said forever)
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say that we can...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don't say that we can still be...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
(Don't say that we can still be friends)

Erase my name from this page.

How can you take all these days
(What is inside of me what have I done?)
and throw them away
(Is this the only way that you will notice me?)
as I sit here waiting for you (for you)
(Dead words for closed ears all this is sung for you)

I stay up nights
(If you are still pretending this is what's right)
until stars leave the sky
(Why cant you look at me can you only see?)
knowing what my dreams can take away
(Sides, your side, can take away)
Walk away from me.
This night is done.

curseonyourlips @ 2005-12-02T17:40:00

2005-12-02T08:45:42Z

somtimes i ask myself why, and usually i have a good answer...but now things seem to be changing and love isnt the greatest answer anymore. i guess we'll see.

curseonyourlips @ 2005-11-18T15:57:00

2005-11-18T22:58:14Z

You know it kills me to see such a pretty girl so tired
You've got your mother's cheekbones and your father's crooked smile
Forget all those places that you've never really been
And all those situations you somehow found yourself in
Let your body sink into me
Like your favorite memory
Like a line of poetry
Or a fucking fit of honesty
I'll do my best to keep you, keep you sleepy as the south
With my old watch on your wrist
And my thumbs inside your mouth
Suck on my fingertips until you kill all my prints
So your boyfriend has no clue
Of how much I've been touching you

My problem with me is my problem with you
It doesn't take much
For me to come unglued
I put my headphones on
And hear your favorite songs
And it kills me to know
That this won't be one of them

You know it saves me to think even for a little while
I owned the set of shoulders that you came to rely on
Like in that movie theater when you whispered in my ear
I almost didn't make it
This has been my hardest year
Your job is killing you faster than a cancer could
So now you're giving up like they always said you would
You've got that old map out now and you found the farthest town
You hope that if you're lucky this is where you'll settle down

I don't care where you move I don't care if it's far
All that I ask is that I know where you are
In case our timing is right
In case you need more from me
Than a bit of advice
Or a tongue full of sympathy

TITS! TITS! TITS!

2005-11-16T20:18:18Z

here are some pics from tour that jake sent me, i know there are a ton more floating around but theses are all i have for now.

girls that let us shower at their place

the tour finale

mine and jakes great invention of mini chocolate chip cookie and pumpkin seeds. we were stoned.

can you tell?

grand junction colorado

jon blair hit my head with his guitar

then dan put a band aid on it

i look so fat

wal mart parking lot party

sober?

curseonyourlips @ 2005-10-28T17:18:00

2005-10-28T22:20:24Z

jon hit me in the head with his guitar during the first song of our set last night. it bled a lot and i felt like i was going to pass out, but me being the BA that i am stuck it out. here are some pictures, they arent very good but yeahhhh.

curseonyourlips @ 2005-10-24T14:21:00

2005-10-24T18:22:09Z

yo yo im in Ann Arbor, Michigan. its very cold. we are heading to chicago in a little bit. im sick, it sucks. cant wait to hit the west coast. late.

curseonyourlips @ 2005-10-17T12:33:00

2005-10-17T16:36:12Z

im in new york city, its amazing. its one of those places you wish you could have that special someone there with you. this tour is amazing, all the bands are amazing and even more amazing gentlmen. alright im done.

i know some of you have to be bored enough to read this.

2005-09-30T22:22:07Z

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